A Testimony of Hope For the Abused
By Patti Willis
I was sexually
abused when I was a child,
at the age of 5 or 6, then at 13,
and then sold
into prostitution, by my first husband.
I know that feeling of fear and
looking over my shoulder
because of people stalking me.
I have hid out next to the
Canadian border and lived in turmoil,
looking at each car that passed,
wondering if my fears would soon come to light.
We need to share our feelings with at least someone else,
feelings are suppressed,
one becomes depressed and then comes destruction.
From a history like mine,
suppressing feelings could be very dangerous.
have God to turn to,
but most humans need another human to vent to,
otherwise why would God have realized that
Adam needed another human to
Adam had God closer than any other
human on earth,
but God knew
humans need seeing, feeling,
touching, sharing, holding, etc.
So He gave
I do know that God is stronger and mightier than any
way Satan can possibly be, so there will be victory,
but it may take some
These kinds of situations do not get solved in any quick manner,
But with God, all things are possible.
I feel I need to share the following.
matter of fact,
I am crying knowing that it will touch someoneís heart.
Lying on a bed at night,
crying until your eyes are red, swollen,
to shed another tear.
Not able to see any glint of light
at the end of the
Seeing the last piece of ledge breaking out
from underneath your
Wondering if there is really any hope at all.
Feeling that it would
if God would let you not wake up.
It Looks Hopeless..
It Feels Hopeless..
But, it isnít Hopeless
You have God.
There have been many times in my past that I could not
see any light around
me or ahead of me.
All I felt was despair and pain.
I felt worthless,
hopeless, and even helpless.
I understand what it feels like to have everything going
wrong and what it
feels like to have almost all of my earthly
possessions, self-esteem, and
dignity stripped away.
I know the pain from physical, sexual, emotional, and mental
even allowed me to go through the "Valley of the
Shadow of Death" (Psalm
During one of the abusive situations I was experiencing,
standing in the bathroom facing the mirror.
I envisioned myself holding
onto a thin thread
and knew if I loosened my grip in the slightest,
would be the end of my sanity.
But God knew better than I,
would look better tomorrow or shortly there after.
Looking back on that
I realize that the thread I was holding onto was a Scarlet
It was the only life line I had at that time.
I know now that if I
keep my eyes focused on my Heavenly Father,
I see the Light,
there is joy,
there is strength,
and there definitely is hope.
I now have more than a
rope to hang onto.
Psalm 31:24 says, "Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart.
All you who hope in the Lord" (NKJ).
So donít give up, just give it to Him!
"I will not forget my promises"
I will hold your hand,
Oh, my child donít be afraid
For have I not said
I will be with you always.
You are my sweet sweet child
And I love you,
I will not forget my promises to you.
I am Jesus
Please stay by my side
Let me hold you in my arms
Where you can safely hide
I will make you strong
Like a tower you will stand
I will not forget my promises to you
(this is one of the songs on my album,
that God gave me when I was going
through a lot of pain)
~~A little more about me . . .
At the age of five, I received Jesus into my
a very dynamic relationship with God
and I walked very close to God as a
I married into a Missionary family,
at the age of sixteen, thinking
this was the beginning of my ministry for God.
Little did I know, that the
person I married
was not at all a Christian.
Unfortunately, I became more
concerned with survival
than seeking what Godís will was for me.
years of every kind of abuse, my marriage ended.
Although, I tried many
times to serve God,
I became very discouraged because of hurts in my life.
It was not until 1984 when I woke up
and realized my life was not
the right direction.
As I totally surrendered my life back
to God, He
restored my life,
the gifts, and talents that
He had given me for His use.
Oh yes, I have made mistakes,
but God has been and is faithful
and just to
forgive them all.
I met a wonderful person in 1990,
who became my spouse in
Since then, my husband and I have sought to do
Godís will in
ministering in any
way He has placed before us.
God has given me the gift
minister through songs, and poetry.
I hope that this page has brought some hope to you
and made you feel that with God
anything is possible.